Better Day......................

for which I am quite grateful for...I ended up crying yesterday for about 4 hours plus last evening. I know that there is lots going on and lots of concerns I have yet I think last night after I stopped crying and after I had a really sweet conversation with Mom I realize that my bipolar is kicking my butt so am going to call my doctor tomorrow and see about upping or changing meds or something....I would have called him today but he is not in the office today. I did go put in a application at Delve and all of the interactions I had with people there everyone seems very nice and kind. I had stated earlier this week that I wanted to start thinking of lj's every day....so here are a few....today it had stopped raining by the time i had to go outside to get my ride.....i finished a book that i was reading that was really good....having a really fun time with Gracie playing with one of her squeeky toys which we call her baby and it talks and she gets so exited....eager to see American Idol tonight with all of the variety of performers who will be on. I was pleased to know that the fund raising that American Idol is doing is helping so many people some in Africa and some here in America and such.
Yesterday I went to Victory's to swim....and got very frustrated because of the pain level I was in that I did get to exercise some but had hoped to do more.....but between the pain level and then there was a woman there who I knew from Clara and she is one of those people who talk and talk and talk and talk and one can hardly say anything and so we were both exercising in the pool but she talked for about 45 minutes and I maybe said two or three sentences and I get in such a internal battle what to do because I do not want to be rude and just walk away but neither do I want to just listen to someone talk about people and what they did to her and such and I just realized as I am writing this that God showed me that by my listening to her I knew how to pray for this woman who seems to be very lonely and very sad and somewhat bitter. I canceled my rides for tomorrow to go though because I have decided that I need to go at a time when she will not be there in order for me to focus on what I am there for and for me to not get bitter about her. i really do want to care and not be mean or hard hearted but maybe my tolerance is less then this week because of the bipolar issue and also my cousin wrote me a long email and tends to want to stir up trouble between people and bash people and I have really really struggled with how to answer her email...I just need to ask Jesus to be my words. I need to write some emails and then get ready to settle down and watch American Idol...not sure at all who will be voted off...I am thinking Lakesha or Chris not that I think that they are bad singers at all just trying to think of who is less popular it seems.