computer......................

my computer has been not working great the last couple of days but right now it is working fine. i just wanted to mention that to the readers so if i do not blog or comment or send emails that is the reason why.

i had a panic attack when i woke up from a loooong night of sleep. i have noticed and so has my mom that when the panic attacks are going on if i try to do something like eating a snack or drinking a pop or coffee or such it helps the panic attack slow down so that i am not so edgy. i am not thinking it is a sugar issue or body need but mom says she thinks it is my brain thinking of something else besides what is going on. now it will not always help but it works enough so that i try to remember to get a drink or a protein bar it helps. i need to drink more water than pop but still am almost all of the town drinking diet pop so that helps...and tea and coffee helps too since doctors consider those drinks be counted as water.

i meet with al my case manager today. we are going to meet at borders bookstore. it is just across the street but with the combination of it being a busy street and my walking slow with either a cane or walker it is too dangerous for me to try. it might be a good thing about not walking good enough to cross the street or otherwise i would spend lots of time and money on books and cd's and great coffee drinks. i always have joked that if i won the lottery i would want to take a truck and load up on lots of cd's and books and such. lol....if i could do that it would be a huge huge joy i think. it is sure a lj for me when i go over there even if it is just to buy coffee and watch people. it was a lj today for talking with my mom...having an email from a friend of church..got an invite for a party this weekend..not sure if i will go since it is a place that i never have gone to the house that is but perhaps i will get brave and try to get mainstream there.......i think i will ask how the steps are and things like that and then make the decision........so it is nice to be invited even if i cannot or choose not to go.............

i am so happy for andrew that his neighbor j is back. i know that they get along really well and have good times on his patio having something cold to drink such as pop or tea and just talking lots about lots of things. i hope that she continues to be in a good space. i hope that everyone who reads this has a peaceful day.