What a week.........................

this has been with lots of sad things that i have either read or heard about....the bus crash of the students....johnny (my brother-in -law) had a student he was really close to die in a car crash on sunday on the way to church and since johnny is one of the guidance counselors at the high school and bellefontaine being a small town.. he had to counsel kids at the high school on sunday evening and be at the funeral and calling hours....one of my friends 16 year old totaled the car in a crash and walked away from it which is amazing since she hit a pole going 50 miles an hour....and the only things wrong is that she has a very bruised hip and knee from the car hitting the pole it was on the drivers side that it hit...her car was the only car involved and she was the only one in the car...keeping up about mike and anya....and hearing about mike's friend dying that is just so wierd...and i heard this week about another person in her 20's having a brain anurysm(sp?) and had an operation but is not able to move or eat last thing i heard...and then i get to feeling guilty when i get upset about not having a job...and/or when i am having a hard day mental illness wise...and get worried about how is this going to happen or whatever and then it gets me really wondering why things happen..and telling God i do not understand which I am human and it is not that i have to understand and some things i think we as humans will not understand until we meet God...any thoughts on things we do not understand that do not seem fair?